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Tuesday, December 28, 2010
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5:15 PM
Today marks the day I got together with Remy for one month! I miss cuddling with him. The weather is so cold now. Nice time to cuddle but he's not with me. Aww ): Anyway, 2010 is ending soon, like in a few days. What awaits me in 2011? I don't really care. I still do whatever I want and be the queen :D
He's been stoning quite a lot recently, and he's getting slower. I'm like that as well. I'm just too lazy to move at times. I'm waiting for him to upload the photos for quite some time but he's too busy to upload them ): Oh well, nevermind! When the time comes, he'll upload them.
My hands got stained with the colours from the pomegranate and it's really stubborn! I've been trying to remove them since last friday and it still stays on my hands. Fuck that! My hands look really dirty with the stains ):
you're MINE!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
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6:31 PM
My whole day is fucked. First thing in the morning, my chef said that the chiller is damn messy and asked those in charge to clean it. Well, he got a problem with me. Only on Wednesdays, and it must be a Wednesday, when I'm in charge of cleaning the chillers and freezers, he will purposely find fault with it and make life difficult for me. It's not the first time. It has been four consecutive Wednesdays. On other days, people don't even clean it or the least, pack the chiller. I did what I'm supposed to do including cleaning the walls and yet he always find fault. Tell me, how fair is him?
Next, I got scolded by the school admin. She just yelled at me for not being on time and shit. Hello bitch. Is it my fault? I know that the pick up is at 8.30am. BUT, our reporting time is at 8.15am and my chef did his briefing and we only start our work at 8.30am. So, is it my fault when I can only start work at 8.30am and you fucking want your macaroons delivered to you at 8.30am? We cannot prepared it the day before. If you want macaroons that taste soggy and gross, fine. I'll do it in advance for you. Are you a retard? Don't you know that macaroons only taste nice if the filling is piped in on the day itself? And, the best thing is that I'm not in charge of doing function. I was just helping out. So, is it my fault? And, that bitchy admin went to lodge a complaint saying that we were rude to her. Fuck that! She was the one that was rude to us. We didn't even get the chance to explain why we were late. She just kept on scolding us. After that bitchy admin left, my chef started to scold us and when I tried to stand up for myself, he told me that I'm not supposed to fight for my rights. Now I get it. I got no human rights in Singapore. OR is it I got no human rights is my school? Fuck that shit man! Seriously, fuck that! -'-
In the afternoon, someone pissed my chef off. He got so angry so he started yelling. EVERYONE coluld hear him screaming in the kitchen and outside the kitchen. Fucking childish ._. After shouting outside the kitchen, he pushed the door so hard and it hit me! I was helping to clean the dough sheeter and I got hit. He didn't apologise when the door hit me.
Then, another admin came to pick up her 12 boxes of macaroons. I just came back to the toilet and when I stepped into the kitchen, my chef told me to help her re-pack the macaroons. I went over, and she was complaining that how inconsistent the macaroons were, how ugly we packed it and stuff. I was helping her to re-pack and then she asked me to give her a pair of gloves and she will do it herself. Fine then. Guess what? She was full of praise when she saw the macaroons yesterday. The macaroons were supposed to be picked up yesterday but she didn't pick it up. So, we can only keep it in the chiller till she picks it up. The macaroons took up so much space in our chiller that the others had to find space to squeeze the other items and in the end, they made a mess in the chiller. Who ended up packing and cleaning the chiller? I did. Fuck that!
At the end, my chef did debrief and he was telling us that we should be puntual and stuff when there's function. I coulddn't take it so I trashed it out with him. Then, I made him apologised to me for what he did when in the fit of anger.
Despite having such a lousy day, I looked forward to dinner at home cause today it's a Wednesday. My parents don't work on Wednesdays and I get to eat dinner and home. Who knows that when I reached home, my mum told me that we are eating canned curry and otah for dinner. Seriously, it was such a disappointment! I always come home for dinner and Wednesdays eventhough most of the time my mum will cook the same dish over and over again. I come back home cause I want to eat home cooked food. I don't get to eat them everyday since I was 11. I always have my 3 meals outside so I really want to eat home cooked food damn badly. When I was expecting dinner at home to make my day and it ended up being such a disappointment, my day can be concluded to be damn fucked.
Time to summarise what I've learn in school today. I'm not supposed to fight for my rights. It will be always my fault when I'm the innocent party. It's part of the daily routine to be scolded for nothing, get injuries cause people are frustrated, take all the blame and shit.
Argh! What's becoming of the world? Fuck that! -'-
you're MINE!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
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9:33 PM
Oh well, I realised that I haven't been blogging for quite some time. I got so much to update! Hmm, where shall I start?
I've been thinking. What stopped me in May to go talk to ♥? I first saw him in Vision, during my dining etiqutte. The first thing that caught my eyes were his fuck bands on his wrist. I was wearing those fuck bands as well. Next, I saw his face! Omg, that was when I got really distracted during my dining etiqutte. He's charming man! I kept telling Aina how cute he looked and I just couldn't take my eyes of him. At that day, I was hoping that he come and serve me but he didn't. I saw him talking to Marcus and Miss Oliveiro and I was wondering why didn't he talk to me as well. I was the hostess leh! Then he disappeared into the pantry ): After the dining etiquette, I often see him in school. I once saw him outside school from the second floor and I went " OMG! Look! It's him! So cute!"
I see him around pretty often but I didn't go talk to him. However, I found out his fb, through Z. Lol. I used to like Z really a lot, until I realised that he lied to me. One thing that I hate most, is that I treat people sincerely and they treat me like shit. Fuck you all! Anyway, I saw on his fb that he's attached. So, I gave up. Well, I didn't want to break people up. That's being pathetic. There was this time when I was standing outside Pastry IS talking with Farelynn and she said Hi to him. I was like "Wtshit. She knows him?" Then, I didn't see him around for quite some time. He's at charcoal when I'm in school. But, there are some times when I see him at the deli. Heh heh!
Soon, it was my turn to go to charcoal. Things kinda change a lot. I started going clubbing and I saw him once at Zirca, when I went with JD & co. Then, I started stalking his fb and I realised that his home club is Zirca. Hahaha! I'm such a stalker right? I went Zirca and Rebel quite often with Adel that time, till things got screwed up. Read my previous post and you'll know la.
It was 3 weeks ago when I'm supposed to go clubbing with him. Cause before that, I went with Adel and Jy on Tuesday and I saw him there. I was drunk that time so I can only remember seeing him and 2 other guys standing near me. The next day, he posted something on my fb wall and I replied. On friday, Jy told me that he wanted my number so I gave. It was then when he persuaded me to go clubbing on Saturday and I agreed to it. However, on that Saturday we were supposed to club, shit happened and we went drinking at Sahara instead. He didn't text me after that ):
On the following Saturday, I got bored cause no one goes clubbing with me so I decided to go ton with Jy. Seriously, ton-ning with them was bored as shit. The topic just revolves around Alan, and Alan and Alan. Nothing else. Worst, Jy, Loewe and his gf, all KO in the end. But, the nice thing is that he was there. I was falling asleep but he didn't let me sleep. He asked me to look into his eyes and I got really mesmerised. We started talking nonsense and we were both so awake, laughing and getting goosebumps at that time. Hahaha! We then went off for breakfast at Long John Silver and we were taking the train back. However, I didn't want to leave so I asked if he mind going Orchard. He didn't so we spent one whole afternoon at Orchard. Then, we went to Alexis's place and after that, we chilled at the park till the stars came out. Awww (:
Starting on Monday, I've been coming out of Sweet Delight to see him. But, I didn't leave my duties aside. I finished my work and was free. So, I came out to see him :D However, some people are jealous of us and they exaggerate things. A hug and a kiss on the lips became "hugging, touching, hands all over, roll tongue and more". What the fuck?! Seriously, the withered flower should date the unwanted sicko. They won't get so jealous of us then. Fuck your life! :D
I spent last Friday, Saturday and Sunday with him and I really love the cuddles we had. I met his bros and we get along well! Nice! :D We were at Nicolas's place and Nicolas is a nice guy. Blonde hair, blue eyes. (Y) I like his friends! They are all so friendly! (:
It was his study week this week. I didn't really get to see him in school but he would come all the way down to meet me. So nice of him yea? It made me speechless when I see how much he cares for me. I feel really cherished and loved by him. I just spend yesterday with him chilling at Balmoral Plaza. I didn't see him for the whole of friday and I missed him so much ): Yesterday wasn't a good day for him. He argued with his mum, got into fights and he was boiling with anger. But I'm glad that his anger dispersed when he saw me. We were both standing in the middle of the pathway, smiling like 2 idiots. Seriously, I think that we are a cute couple! :D
Although we are only together for 2 weeks, it felt much more longer to me. I didn't feel the same when I was with my chinese ex. I feel myself being more attached to him with each passing day. Like, I can barely survive if I don't see him. I'm just so crazily in love with him. Everyday in my mind, it's Remy, Remy and Remy. He completes my life. He makes me feel that I'm of a top priority. Of course, I know that he will need his own free time. I won't expect him to spend 24/7 with me. That's just too demanding.
XXVIII; a special number which means a lot to us ♥ Je t'aime Remy!
you're MINE!
