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Saturday, May 29, 2010
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6:49 PM
Today was the most unfruitful day of the week. I spent hours waiting, just to take my tests. OMG! My time is precious! It's not meant to be wasted in such a way! ): But, everyone was waiting as well. So I shall not complain!
While I was waiting, my mind drifted away. It wandered all the way back to the past, where I used to share happy memories with different guys. All memories buried deep inside my heart suddenly became a film. And I was watching it. At the age of 16, I believed that you were my true love. You were different from the precious few. You loved me for who I am. And I truely loved you then. You gave me promises but you broke all of them. You broke my heart. When you left, you left me shattered and torn. I got out of it eventhough I was really brokenhearted. You didn't know how painful it was for me, did you? I did all I could to salvage our relationship and you left me 4 days before my birthday?! There were a few occasions when we both saw each other. But you chose not to say hi to me. To date, we didn't keep in contact for years. You must be feeling guilty for abandoning me eh?
At the age of 17, you stepped into my life. You were my crush when I was in secondary 1. I didn't expect us to be together, cause we don't talk much. But, we did got together. I don't know if you really love me, but I did love you then. However, things changed as time passes. You wasn't as loving as initaially. You would be great, if you put me as your first priority instead of your DOTA. Out of a sudden, you just went MIA. A year past and you resurfaced. I feel that you are a nice guy. You were there for me when I was feeling low. Why won't you be as sweet when we were together?
At the age of 18, I met you. Honestly, I felt that you are a jerk. The worst guy that I had ever met! Do you go around toying with girl's feelings? In short, you suck.
Next, it was you. I really like you a lot. But, your feelings for me ain't real. So, I got myself out of the whole mess before you get the chance to break my heart. When I was clearing my inbox today, I got the urge to text you cause I saw the messages you sent me. But, I held back. I knew that you wouldn't give a damn about me now. You were lovely and great. I miss those times we spent together though it was only a short period.
There were a few passerby in my life. I appreciate their love for me but I just don't feel the same way for them. Thanks for loving me!
I'm turning 19 this year. I don't want to get into a relationship that wouldn't last. I'm sick of my heart shattering everytime when I met a new guy. I met a really nice guy this year. Too bad he isn't mine. Perhaps, he was never meant to be mine. I miss those times when we had endless conversations. I miss those times when he was beside me. I haven't seen him for ages. How have you been? No doubt, he must have gotton busier. He won't have forgotten about me if he was that free. Little do you know, out of so many guys, I miss you the most! ):
It's going to be end of May soon. Time really flies. How I wish that time would stop at the time when I was 16. I had the sweetest memories then. "07 red and green; forever, Bonnie and Clyde." But, I'd aleady moved on. You were just a part of my past.
Alright, end of story. Actually, there's no ending yet. I waiting for my prince to write the ending together with me. Is it going to be like the fairytales? Where I'm asleep all alone in my icy cold bed and then a prince charming came along and give me a true love's kiss. Next, it's happily ever after. I'm waiting for this day to come :D
Argh! Are you guys her dog? Why do you guys always do her bidding? Can't you see that she's making use of you all? OMG!! Wake up please! Tsk!
you're MINE!
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12:40 AM
Dearest you,
I miss you terribly. I swear that the next time I see you, I will give you a long hug. You can choose to push me away, but I ain't going to let you go. You can choose to not love me, but I will continue loving you. I'm just not going to let go, cause I see you as mine.
With love,
me
Awww, ain't that sweet? :D
I'm missing someone too ): I haven't seen him for like a million of years. Does he misses me as much?
Alright, the weather nowadays is so damn fking hot that I am going to melt anytime I stepped out of my room ._. I feel like living in a blast freezer. I rather freeze to death than to melt under this kind of weather. I like the sun, but i hate it when I start to perspire! I'll stink man! OMG. Can't stand the thought that I stink. I must look good, and smell good at all times, you see.
Yesterday's etiquette test was so crap ._. I was the hostress and I was being forgotten! OMG. Some waiters damn fail can? They cleaned the bread crumbs off everyone's table except mine. They arranged the dessert fork and spoon for others except mine. And they almost forgot to ask me if I wanted sugar in my coffee! OMG. DAMN FAIL! But cannot really blame them. It's lots of hard work, to serve one person at a time. And worst, to serve such a big class. Blame it on my luck then ): Sat for menu planning test and I was the first one to leave the class. I didn't really bother studying. When I saw the paper, I just do which ever questions I could do and then handed in my paper. I then went to help out in the selection competition. OMG. I love it man! Just stand there and bai sui! Haha! Super love yesterday cause I still look pretty in chef uniform. I need not wear my chef cap and my hair is not messy! Haha! Can I be in such attire for my IS always? Then my hair won't be messy (: Then, I went to watch movie with Adrian & Co. Shrek 3 is so nice! :D "CATastophic and reDONculous!" HAHAHAHAHA!
Ohmy. My ♥Siaozhabor is not feeling well! Argh! She cannot fall sick laa! I'll miss her nonsense if she's sick ): GY is pissed now. Tsk! People, don't go overboard eh. Some people can't take jokes, cause they don't find it funny ._. It all started with his remark of I ♥ FG when he saw the banner at Iluma. Since he's feeling so damn pissed now, maybe I should just get out of his life so that you guys will stop teasing him? Awwww ):
Anyway, there is some weirdo out there who added me on fb, and thank me for adding him. WTH! When I replied back saying that it's him who added me and not me who added him, he -.- me and said that the accepting of his friend request is considered as adding him. Gosh! Adding him means I added him. Accepting his friend request means I accepted his request of asking me to be his friend and does not mean that I added him. If he thanked me for adding him on my friends list, it's still okay. But it wasn't the case! It meant another thing when he said that I added him ._. Oh boy! Please get your facts right.
Milk is feeling bored now. I asked him to count sheep. He told me that he wanted to count elephants. Cause they walked slower. OMG laa! Lame shit siol! He's so crapppy! HAHAHAHAHA! Bloody hell. He said that he's bored then I said that I'll talk to him. Then he jitao say he go sleep -.- When I say that he siao cause I'm going to talk to him then he going sleep, he said that he don't want to talk to me so say he wanna sleep. Then now he says that he's going to be a good guy and talk to me. Lame shit laa! Siao!
Tsk, what the problem man? If you find my liking of pages a nuisance cause it spams your news feed, feel free to delete me. I don't give a damn. Fb created fan pages for people to like it, isn't it? I just feel like clicking all of those cause people are spamming my news feed too. Some applies, and for the rest that don't apply, I just feel like liking it. Can I?
Oh well, enough of my rants. I'm going to enjoy my beauty sleep. A true love kiss will bring me back to where I belong.
you're MINE!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
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10:43 PM
Ah, I'm almost dead now. Tsk! Damn idiotic. Why ain't cupcakes considered cake? C'mon! It's cupCAKE! I did my whole recipe again ._. OMG! Please let my recipe get through tomorrow! I don't want to redo! *Prays hard*
I woke up this morning with a sore feeling in my mouth ): Pain leh! Anyway, ♥Siaozhabor was so crap today! She made me climbed the stairs up and down cause she forgot to take her speech from me. But, since she helped me buy mac, I won't box her now :D Haha! 5 minutes ago, I told her to go blog. And, she just told me that she blogged finished the next moment ._. Tsktsk! I pity ♥Siaozhabor man! Go everywhere also need to bring a helmet along. Her parents scared that she will do stunts and injure herself. Therefore, they made her bring a helmet along! HAHAHAHAHA! And, she told me that she tweet a lot. Wanna know why? Cause tweety bird is her best bud! OMG! HAHAHAHAHAHA! I think that my mind is wandering too far off. I'm being so crappy here ._.
Why do you go for petty gains? No standard! Tsk!
you're MINE!
Saturday, May 22, 2010
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11:49 PM
The sleeping queen is so tired, she needs to hibernate real soon. A tiring day as usual, and soon, she will be bombarded with datelines for projects. There are so many datelines to meet and time just flies. What should she do? She decided to just sleep for now, cause her beauty sleep is more important than anything else. She can't go around looking like a zombie.
I'm back from Suntec an today ain't as fun ): I still prefer last saturday. Tsk, either say things out loud or do it discreetly. Don't say it right in front of me and pretend that you are talking about something else which I don't know. I'm observant and I know what is going on yea? Oh well, forget it. I wasn't even interested in that activity. What can we do with so few people? Stare at each other? Today is sooooooooooo not fun! ):
I'm glad that you had recovered (: It was good news cause we were supposed to meet. In the end, things turn out the another way round ): I really thought that I could see you after such a long period of time. I really miss you and I mean it. I'm getting busier and I believed that you are busier than me. Life sucks a hell lot!
you're MINE!
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2:33 AM
Tsk! We left school at 11 plus at night again! OMG! Kaopeh leh! I finished my product on the dot, and plated. I went to the chef and told him that I completed my product but he totally forgotten about me after he marked someone's product first! ): Darn! I waited damn long can? Tsk! it was never my turn till 45 minutes later ._. Oh well, damn fail laa! Clean up and blah, and went to eat dinner. LOL, or maybe supper laa. We ate at 11.38pm ._. I checked my watch. After eating, I walked home. I used to walk the route with my ex-es. Today, I walked the same route alone :/ No big deal. I'm a brave girl. I ain't afraid of the dark, I'm just afraid that I won't reach home safely. Anyway, I got home safely and I showered. Did some stuff and finially blogging here. 2.38am on my watch now and tomorrow, I got lesson at 8.30am ._. Tsk! Tomorrow is a saturday and I need to stay in school till 3 pm? God damn it!
Are you feeling better already? (:
you're MINE!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
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11:18 PM
I'm feeling so sleepy. My eyes are closing and I'm blogging with my eyes half closed ._. Tomorrow's my practical. God damn it! I need the blast freezer to freeze my cake! But it's always not cold enough! GG ._. Oh well, I will do my best tomorrow laa!
Tsk! My dark eye rings are getting darker. I think I'm going to move house soon. Soon, I'll be living in the zoo, with the pandas! OMG! And, I ALWAYS HAVE TROUBLE WAKING UP! I NEED MORNING CALLS! Today, I kept snoozing my alarm. I set my alarm at 6.50am and I only woke up at 8.15am, when I'm supposed to reached school by 8.30am! I think I should slap myself when I wake up to prevent me from sleeping back. LOL! I scared tomorrow I cannot wake up leh! OMG! I don't want to wake up after 5pm! Gosh! I'm going to sleep now! Good night! :D
You keep falling sick ): Please get well soon!
you're MINE!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
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9:52 PM
Hey you, I feel so disappointed with you. I didn't expect you to behave this way you see. It's so childish. Yea, it's your choice. You can dislike me or hate me and delete me from your facebook. I don't give a damn. It just shows that how immature you are, seriously. I bet that you deleted me from your facebook because you saw me liking her status yea? So you jolly well assumed that I'm anti you and stuff. OMG! Don't assume yea? Get your facts right. I like her status because she mentioned about people posting insensitive remarks on her status and hope that they feel guilty. I'm not directly her words at you. I'm just feeling the same way as her as I experienced the same thing (see my blog post on 3 May 2010, Monday). There are countless insensitive people out there who ain't responsible for their words. And they end up hurting people. I want those people to feel guilty for their irresponsible actions. No doubt, I do know about the misunderstanding between you and her. But I didn't side any of you. I took a neutral stand and chose not to take any sides. I see you as a friend, as a senior. I just didn't expect you to do such things. I was really taken aback. What's becoming of this world? Assumptions really wreaks relationships ):
you're MINE!
Monday, May 17, 2010
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8:32 PM
Ah! Progress tests on this week! OMG! Damn it! Projects ain't really progressing ._. We are so slow, OMG!
Awwww, you finally left! You were great! It's a pity though. But it's alright! Cos you were never the one for me!
我的风! It's great to receive your call yesterday! And I didn't expect to see you today! Awwww, too bad we only 'Eh, Hello! Bye!" ): It's soooooooo Hi,Bye ._. Hope to see you real soon eh? Imy&Ikymmt :D!
I want nobody nobody but you! Do you know?
you're MINE!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
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5:31 PM
I'm honoured (: ♥
you're MINE!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
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11:10 PM
Damn! I'm so freaking busy with my school work that my blog is so dead! Hmm, where shall we start? Alright, shall start with school then. Projects on hand and dateline is soon I guess ): Menu planning and K.O. Kao! I'm really going to be KO soon laa! Tsk! Not enough time as usual! Progress tests are just around the corner! Practical test too ): FML man! Kao! I haven't even got the least idea what to do for my elaborate sweets! Sian jibuah ._.
Tsk! I got so much things that I want to do and I don't have the time! When I finally have the time, something unexpected will happen! ばか！Lots of things on my mind but I chose to ignore them first. I'll get back to them when I feel like it. What else can I do? They may seems trival but they ain't, seriously. I'm prioritising yea?
I'm kind of losing faith in you. You need to grow up yea? Life sucks a hell lot! ):
you're MINE!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
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11:16 PM
Why do you even try to control me? Don't you know that I won't bow to you? Tsk!
I'm back from Suntec! Although I didn't do anything much, I had a great day (: We went to Taiwan Cafe to eat and I ordered a curry chicken cutlet rice. Gosh! The chicken cutlet was damn big alright? Was really damn full after that meal. Walked around and nuah at some bench, enjoying pretzel from Auntie Anne! Heh heh!
Recently, it's quite happening. I'm feel so lost at times! But, at least I know what I'm doing. There's no room for regrets. This is something assuring, I guess?
you're MINE!
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
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8:53 PM
Why didn't you text me? Why didn't you call me? ):
you're MINE!
Monday, May 3, 2010
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4:59 PM
Kao peh! What's the problem with some people? I seriously don't see the point why must they comment rubbish on my status and activity on facebook. Get a life man! Do you guys really have nothing to do? And there was this rotten guy, who seriously suck to the core. First of all, I don't know who the hell is he and when he added me on facebook, I accepted his request out of curteousy cause he's my friend's friend. Then, he commented on my status. Fine, you can comment anything but get your facts right yea? Kao! He scolded me for something that I didn't do? Chao chee bye! You and your rotten mouth! Think before you speak/type yea? You will offend so many people with your words! KNN! Bloody irresponsible guy! Whatever that you had said to me, I'm sorry but it doesn't applies to me (: I think that it applies to you instead :D No wonder you are rejected by girls. No wonder people don't like you. Gosh, find a big piece of wall and bang your head against the wall please? You totally wasted 18 years of your life. Grow up will you? Stop being so immature and scolding people that you don't even know for something that they didn't do. I'm seriously pissed off by what you said and I'm not going to forgive you. Cause you insulted me with no valid reason. Chao chee bye! You should go and die!
you're MINE!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
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11:05 PM
Never underestimate the charm I exude. But why ain't you mesmerise by me?
you're MINE!
