You are the second man that had shed tears for me. I must have been like a porcupine and I really did pricked you hard. It must have hurt a lot. I'm sorry but I'm not the one for you. You are a good man and I know that you will find a better girl than me. I'm not as good as what you think. 长痛不如短痛, I'd made my decision after a long consideration. I don't want to end up hurting you more becuase of my indecisiveness. Life moves on as usual and I don't want you to lead your old life because of me. I'm not worth you making such a big sacrifice. I'm just a part of your life and I'm your past now. Once again, I'm really sorry for hurting you and you must be feeling lost. If i didn't make my choice now, the impact may be greater and more painful. I don't want that to happen. Thank you for loving me.

Kao! I was late for IS today. Hah, and I think I sprouted nonsense to Shie Ling. Tsk, and IS ended late today. Oh well, it doesn't really matter to me. Anyway, I partner Lawrence today! Haha! And the soup we made today tasted fabulous! Gosh, we had fun blending the ingredients in Sweet Delight! The seniors are so nice! ♥

I didn't choose to let you go. You chose to let go of me.

I'm falling sick ): Hah, 生病是三小？I'm a strong girl, only if you are by my side.

“风往哪个方向吹，草就往哪个方向倒。” —艋舺

你就是我的风，而我就是你的草。我会一直跟随着你 ♥

Why is this world so complicated? Why do people always have a motive behind every of their actions? Why can't everyone just be contented? Why am I so unhappy? Why is there no one to answer my whys? Why WHY WHY? I'm depressed. I'm lying unconscious. I'm dead. What will you do? Life suck a hell lot ): I think I'd make the correct decision. I'm fighting for my rights and I didn't make a mountain out of a molehill. So, if anything happens to you, you only have yourself to blame. After what I'd saw, you don't seems to be the Mr. Nice. There is something cunning about you but I won't let you affect the way my brain functions. So, I'll just do it my way (:

She's not that kind whom guys will take a second glance.

LOLLER! Anyway, tomorrow having lessons early in the morning. Sian-ness ):


I'm caught in a dilemma. What should I do? ):

Weeeeeeeee! Tomomorrow no lessons! WOOHOOOOOOOOOO! Anyway, I woke up at 4pm today. Hah, I slept at 4 plus in the morning then around 11 plus answered a phone call. Yadayadayadeydo then went back to sleep. 2 plus woke up again to reply texts, thn sleep again. Finally, I woke up at 4 pm. I just randomly pick a top and went to shower. Lol, when I reached school, so many people asked me where I'm going -.- Aiyo, I'm not going anywhere laa! I just randomly pick this top cause I got no time to iron my tee. Tsk! Someone even more champion laa. Asked me if it's worth it to wear till so nice just for 2 hours. PLEASE lor, I must always look pretty and glam laa. Then what do you expect? Me to wear till damn la-thak then go to school or something? Gosh, that will never happen alright? It's so unpresentable. I have my image to maintain (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! :D

Hmm, today's demo lesson is cancelled. But I went back to school for a meeting. I had fun just by attending the meeting! There will always be crappy nonsense after the serious stuffs. Haha! I went to KFC for lunch, and I talked for hours with Aaron. Then, we went to watch Shutter Island. It's a NC16 movie and I bought the tickets. I'd been watching NC16 before I'm 16 and I always can get in and never got checked. For the first time, the counter anutie wanted to check my IC and Aaron's IC! OMG laa! I was stunned! She saw Aaron's IC and mine. Aaron told her that he's 25 then the auntie said that he's okay but I'm not okay. Cause I don't look 16. Seriously, if the person doubt me for M18 movie still okay but this is a NC16 movie. It's kind of lame cause I can buy ticket for NC16 when I'm not 16 last time but I can't buy NC16 ticket when I'm 18 now? Lol. Watched the movie and my conclusion is: It's a nice movie. It's a combination of mystery and confusion. I think that I'm going bonkers after watching the movie. It's ironic isn't it? I said that it's nice yet I said that I'm going crazy. Hah, cause I'm confused about the ending myself. No doubt for that. Tomorrow's lessons will be cancelled too, except for KO. Gosh, I need to go back for KO at 4.30pm. I will really KO man. And I mean knock-out.

The Boy:

If you see me walking on the road with someone else
It's not because I like her company
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me

If you hear me talking about her all the time
It's not because she pleases me
it's because you're too deaf to hear my heart beat

If you feel me falling for someone new
It's not because I love her
It's because you're not here to catch me if I fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we going to cross each other's path,
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of we had,
Or go to the place place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk with her
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk to her
It's you want talk with
Don't let me fall for her
It's you I want to fall in love with

The Girl:

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe of charm that stands before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heart beat
I didn't want to assume anything
I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
I couldn't because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the ground; you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we going to cross each other's path?
Will we let go of what we have,
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk to no one
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for no one and nothing
It's you I want to fall in love with


I understand your situation. I seriously do.
abcdefghisomissyou ):

ARGH! Had a bad day today! Gosh! Seriously, is like WTF!!! First of all, I overslept and woke up at 8.30am when I'm supposed to have lessons at 8.30. Then I faster wake up and shower and cabbed to school. When I reached school, the teacher haven't come so I heaved a sign of relief cause attendance wasn't marked. Then the class waited for quite some time but the teacher still haven't come. So, I went to the office to find her but she wasn't there. I went to the management office and then the lady there told me that she's a new teacher and won't be coming to school till the 3rd week. She said that we are informed but seriously, we are not. Tsk, I shouldn't cab to school if I know she wasn't even in school. Waste my money. We then waited for Chef Matthew to come and lessons ended early than expected. I went to lunch with them and OMFG! I don't know how much time they spent on deciding what to eat. Waste my precious time. If there's a clash of what to eat and where to eat, just eat seperately and we can meet again after meal. It's hard to satisfy each and every person in such a big group. So, why bother waste time trying to decide what and where to eat when the discussion is not going anywhere? Just eat seperately and meet again later. It's just so easy. Why can't people understand this simple logic? Tsk! Then, we went to Jurong Safra with the intention of singing kbox. Cause, there is this $8 nett promotion. WTH! When we reached there, it became $16+++ which will add up to about $25/pax cause the promotion doesn't apply on weekend. Kao! I jitao sian half man. We then went pooling and I didn't pool at all. Reason is cause it's cheaper with Safra member and we don't have the card so we joined the rest of our class. When we went in, it's already like so many people pooling at one pool table so I can't insist that I want to pool right? So, I sat there and watched people pool. Then, I also died of boredom so I left and homed. I took a nap cause I am quite tired. My dark eye rings are getting darker and darker ):

All the jerks in the world should just bang their head on the wall and die! (:

Tsk! SO DAMN KAOPEH! Anyway, I brought home my blackforest cake and I took out a few slices. And, there was this conversation between my mummy and me.

"你要拿给谁?"
"Aiya, 拿给我的朋友lor."
"男的女的?"
"男的."
"你的男朋友啊?"
"没有laa! 有很多个leh. 哪里可能是我的男朋友!" Then I gave her a -.- face.
"为什么要给他们? 他们没有做cake meh?"
"Aiya, 他们是煮东西的laa. 他们明天会煮日本餐给我try. Then我们exchange lor."
"Orhhhhhhhhhhhhh, 他们要做sushi 给你ah?"
"Aiya! 我不知道laa! 日本餐不是只有sushi lor. 还有别的 lor." I -.- my mummy again.
"Orhhhhhhh, then 是什么?"
" 不知道."
End of conver. LOL!

Hah, I'm just being me. As random as usual (: I don't know what's the point of the conversation but I just put it laa. Gosh, it's already so late. Tomorrow still got lessons early in the morning till afternoon. Sian-ness :O *yawns* Good night people! I will have a good sleep cause it's going to rain! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! (:

P.S ALL JERKS OUT THERE SHOULD REALLY DIE (:

I got this pair of shoes that I only worn it for a few times. But, I refused to wear it cause I find it too small. An old woman along the street just wore my old shoes and she thought that it's brand new. Isbht (:

wow WOW WOW! Knight Rider is so damn cool! Nice man! I love it! (: I want to live in a super high-tech world! I want to own a talking car with special abilities and I want to have super powers! I want to be the top-notch martial arts master and I want everlasting happiness! I want I WANT I WANT!!!

Term just started and everyone is so busy ): I hate this! Gosh, I don't know why I had got so
many cuts on my arm. Who the hell abused me huh? How come I got so many cuts? ): Tomorrow I got IS till 7pm. Will I get to see you? ):

It's been ages since I hear from you ): A busy man like you won't take notice of me anyway.

Argh! Life is miserable! OMG! I don't know why I said such depressing words. What happened to the happy me? Can someone tell me what is going wrong? I feel so dead! Who will pump oxygen to my heart? My heart feels so empty; so empty that I just feel like going into a deep deep sleep. I want to be like sleeping beauty, who only wakes up after her prince kissed her. But, can I really meet my prince? Argh, I should stop dreaming. It's not even realistic.

I'm feeling so lethargic. I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder. Why? I'm just a nobody. Is it because I'm getting matured and things just can't stop flashing in my mind? I feel that my brain is going to explode anytime. Honestly, is it just me or there are people feeling the same way as I feel now? Where is the optimistic me? Gosh, I want to be the happy girl I used to be ): Did I make the wrong decision? Nah, I don't think so. I don't regret my actions, unless it's really something that I really did it wrongly.

What's the reason that sometimes I'm feeling down? I don't know either. Or perhaps, I just refused to accept the truth. Cause, the truth really hurts. The truth shall just be kept secret. I don't want to know and never want to know. However strong I try to be, there will always be a weak side of me. I just need someone to be there with me. I need my superman ):

Some days I'll sit just staring out the window and watching this world passing me by. Sometimes I think there's nothing to live for; I almost break down and cry. Somtimes I think I'm crazy. Why am I here just wasting my time? Argh, why is it that we feel like strangers at times? I don't want things to turn out this way. Honestly, my insecurities could just eat me alive. I may be found lying dead on my bed tomorrow. Whatever it is, I got to keep myself alive, until love is found.

Life sucks! ):

You:
There's no way Mars will allow you to be under the rule or control of anyone else. You are independent, straight forward and enterprising in your manner. An explosive nature is revealed at times when restraint or opposition is placed in your path. You must expect danger at some stage of life as Mars rules weapons, injuries and fights.

Always prefer the gentle response to the aggressive, to minimise the negative energies of Mars. The sub rulership of Saturn means you do have the capacity for restraint if you exercise cool headedness instead.

Me:
The powerful 10th Solar House rulership indicates high preferment and possible fame - if you desire it. The power and warmth of the Sun endows you with a natural feeling of leadership and self importance. People will look to you for guidance, and with the added lunar and Saturnian vibrations, you maintain a calm mental outlook, even when the situation seems hopeless. This really instils confidence in those who look up to you.

Though your successes are assured after a long fight, you will experience hardships as a result of opposition and enemies - who are probably envious of your sterling qualities.

Us:
Our personal ruling planets are Sun and Mars and our lucky day is on Thursday.

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很感激，这城市拥挤的交通，让你我还能多相处几分钟。人潮中，怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手。一刻都不放松，也不想放松。忍不住，想要爱你的冲动。不确定你属于我，所以会有点寂寞。你给的幸福，在我心中自由走动，抚平我每一个伤口。忍不住，想要吻你的冲动。不确定我的执着是否能让你感动。我只能相信自己感受，不怕失落。关于你的一切，我想要比谁都懂。我的心是被你设定的闹钟。提醒我，想你的时间不够用。为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动？是你改变我吗？你是情人还是朋友？我还没勇气想得太多。你的世界如此辽阔，我会在哪个角落呢？

Are you angry at me cause I took the causeway bay photo? I swear that that's the only photo I took. Gosh, this feeling totally sucks. I can't seem to reach you. ): I'm feeling so depressed! ):

Yesterday I went to 铜锣湾(Causeway bay), today I went to 港湾(Habourfront). Haha!



Yup. I woke up quite early today, around 7 am. Ahhhh, not that I woke up willingly laa. It's because my phone was ringing non-stop. Still not that bad laa. I slept for around 12 hours. Damn tired yesterday. Yea, woke up, and saw many messages. Supposed to meet Kenrick & co. at 9.30am. But, I doze off shortly after I woke up. So, I end up meeting them at 11am. Ate KFC for breakfast, and shopped at Daiso @ Vivo. OMG laa! We really shopped there lor. We supposingly to go in to buy some stuffs while waiting for Wee Wee. Who knows that we got stucked there for an hour plus and end up, it's Wee Wee waiting for us! Then, we took the monorail and we went to Sentosa! We played frisbee and we got bored of it. So, we BURIED Kenrick! Haha, took photos but it's with Wee Wee (you can go my fb see). Then, we played with water and I wanted to sun tan. But, I didn't really get tan laa. Stupid Dennis threw sand at my hair and after I washed them off by soaking my hair in sea water, the group want to take photos -.- I look super shag in it -.- Blah, blah, and we went showering after that but guess we girls really took a very long time. The guys and Xin Hong almost rotted while waiting for us. Haha! We wanted to take the monorail back but the queue was damn long. So, we took the shuttle bus back. It took us quite long too, due to the jam -.- After that, we went to Chinatown to eat porridge. Quite nice laa. Basically, today's outing is to celebrate Jaysline's birthday. Seriously hor, she really blur till cannot be any blur-er. Haha! Homed and called you. Lol, why go out never bring charger. Oh well, nevermind. I shall go to sleep then. Good night everyone! (:

Lalala~ I'm in a blue blue place. It's nice here. quire comfortable. Yup. I can't really type because this set of keyboard is really noisy. I don't want to wake you up. Later you don't have enough sleep then you grumble. I seriously got nothing to do. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, can I wake you up now? It's still so early, where's my noodles that you promised to cook for me?

Shh... My wind is asleep, and I'm blogging here. ♥

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