我的风, it's been so long since I last heard your voice.

Argh! I went to play mahjong today and I lost money ): Oh well, forget it. Blah blah blah, I bruised my thumb while I opened the ironing board just now. I don't know how the board kiap my thumb laa. Blue black already ): Tsk, saw the McDonald's advertisement and I'm craving for the spicy shaker fries now. Who wanna buy for me? (:

First day of holidays and it sucks as much as you do! ): Feeling damn bored the whole day. Solo activites sucks to the core! i hate solitary ):

I want you by my side, I really do!

WOOHOO! I'm flying high high already! I went to play one round of mahjong just now, and I won money! Lady luck is by my side today! Awww, ♥♥♥! Haha, haven't collect my winnings yet but I'm still happy! Aiseh, chalet got money pay already (:

Anyway, exams over already! It's the hols! Anyone wanna ask me out? I don't want to rot at home ): It's a short 2 weeks break. Real short, but at least better than nothing yea? I'm free from next thurdays onwards. I need to go back to school on monday and tuesday. Wednesday is reserved for my mummy. Ask me out! (:

I booked you but I seriously don't know where to go. Can we like sit down somewhere for hours and do nothing? (:

Argh! I seriously cannot stand that B&B! First, I got irritated. Then I got agitated. Next, I got frustrated. Now, I'm so infuriated! Oh well, see no evil and hear no evil (: Tomorrow is the last paper. I can't wait for it to be over man! Gosh, brain dead. I got nothing to post. Bye!

Argh! Damn wasted man! Oh well, forget it man. What's happening to the world man? Everything just happens at the speed of lightning. Gosh!

Blah blah blah.
闪电恋爱, 闪电分手. It happened to me too. But, I won't let history repeat itself. Why am I always the one getting hurt? The feeling just sucks. Now, I longed to have someone who will love me as much as I love him. Although I want somebody by my side, I won't rush into a relationship now I guess. I don't want to end up being hurt again. I'm so sick of believing that the next relationship will be a better one. It's just lies. I chose to believe it cause I don't want to feel sad or anything over my broken relationship. Come to think of it now, it's stupid for me to think that way. Argh, whatever!
Do you think about me now and then?

我的风, I didn't mean to not reply your texts or pick up your calls. I really have the intention of calling you back. But, I fell asleep while waiting for your reply and my phone was on silent mode. I'm a heavy sleeper and I can't feel the phone vibrating. I know you won't be so petty and ignore me. Peace kay? But, I still need to apologise for being unreasonable. I don't know why I'm so unreasonable yesterday. Blame it on my hormones yea.
Sorry, 我的风! Peaceeeeeeeee!

Gosh, it's still so early uh. My eyes still felt heavy. They will be closing soon, any minute from now. * yawn*

Around 8 in the morning, my grandpa woke up up by shouting, "Eh, 今天没有考试啊?!" OMG laa! I got a shock man! My mind was blank at that moment. So, I sat up on my bed and I answered, "死了!我迟到了!" Then I did the stupidest thing! I stood up on my bed! Kao! I jitao knocked my head on the ceiling! My bed is a double decker and for your info, I owned the 2nd level of the bed. Yea, and that knock made me scream in pain for 10 minutes. So damn effing pain! I think that that knock is going to make me dumb -.- Anyway, while screaming in pain, I somehow realised that I didn't have to go to school today. So, I jumped down from my bed and slept on my bro's bed instead. Come to think of it now, my head still hurts. Who's going to sayang me? OUCH!

The verdict of today's paper: I won't do well but the least is that I will pass. Hell man! Those rubbish that I glanced through did not come out! All those alien alibaba stuff came out instead! The whole class was cursing all they way. Awww, too bad for me. Who asked me not to study hard enough? Oh well, I can't be bother too.

Well, I can sense that there is something going on underground. Don't bother hiding the fact please! It's so obvious! From what I had observed and what the others said, I came to the conclusion that there is something fishy going on. Yup, no point hiding. If you have the guts to do it, have the guts to admit it! There are so many weird people around me! I'm to lazy to list. It's just so weird. And, I simply don't understand why people try to do those things. It's just so ridiculous!

Argh! I can't stand the pimples popping out on my face like nobody's business! And those eye bags and dark eye rings! I seriously need to get them of my face! Kao!

Tsk. Recently, I'm quite ***. Idk why either. Someone enlighten me please.

I haven't got the chance to sit down and take a good look at you. When will I get the chance?

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No regrets at all, I'm high and I hope you can catch the fall
Welcome to my lecture hall, you can't shake my infection off
Take me to your leader and, I promise I will be the man
Swim until I see the sand, then die as soon as I reach the land
The water's over our hands, what happened to our plans
Swim until I see the sand, then die as soon as I reach the land!

Chorus
This is my resurrection, so fuck your resolution
I don't need no protection, I don't need your confusion
Don't know what to believe
Don't know what to believe
Don't know what to believe
Don't care what you believe
Cause I'm so over you, yeah I'm so over you
Yeah I fly over you, cause I'm so over you

Heeeey
I did everything by the book, book, book
Scribblin' over all of the notes that I took, took, took
Find that you'll never ?
Setting the setup to fall like the twins, you... struck
Show them a picture of my I.D.
Better enough to prove that it's me
Look in the mirror,
Now who should I...

Chorus

Ha!
Don't know what to believe (huh)
Don't know what to believe (yeah)
Don't know what to believe (huh)
Don't care what you believe (yeah)
Don't know what to believe (huuuh)
Don't know what to believe (yeaaaaah)
Don't know what to believe (huuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaah)
Yeaah!

Kao! Don't ask me if I studied for my exams. Who the hell will not study? It's just a matter of fact whether stuffs get into my head. I did attempt studying. But nothing much really gets into my head. I went mac with my intention of studying with my sis. Then, she and her friend were supposed to do their holiday assignments. But, they were talking non stop when I was studying. So, I joined in their conversation. In the end, I just read throught the book and didn't really study. I know people are concerned when they asked if I studied. But I just don't like people asking. I don't see the point asking. If you studied and me saying that I didn't study makes you feel good, go and die kay? I don't stress myself over exams. As long as I did my best, that's it. I need not be the top scorer or anything. My parents felt the same way as well. They don't pressurise me. It's those people that keep asking and keep saying that gives me the creeps. It's just exams. What's the big fuss whether I studied or not? You should not waste your time bothering whether I studied or not. Seriously, I don't ask people if they studied. Cause, I see no point in asking. If they study and do well, it's their marks and not mine. So why ask?

You can ask me to study but please don't ask if I studied.

I seriously don't like people to ask if I studied. That's so lame!

Te Amo. This 5 letters brought back so much memories. Yes, that's right. I stitched these 5 letters for him. Though we were on the verge of break up, I still love him at that time. When we just broke up, I said that I will forget him but not forgive him. But now, it seems the another way. I forgave him but have not forgotten him. I'm just wondering how he's doing. It has been so long. Everything had came to numbness. I doubt that we will meet. So, I'll just bury the memories (:

&&&
.

. BULLSHIT! Don't give me all those crap! You don't do what you preach! Sucker!

. Why can't you be 光明磊落 instead of 偷鸡摸狗? Kao! I just couldn't stand the way you do
. things. I hate sneaky people like you! 横刀夺爱 is what you are capable of? OMG laa!

. NO STANDARD! Fine! I shall give you my blessings, though I doubt that you two will last long(:

.
TADAAAAA!

It's a miracle that I got up so early to blog though. Today is a sunday. I usually don't wake up till it's 5pm cause I seriously need my beauty sleep. Now, it's only 10.18am. Lol, so early. Guess that it's because I slept early last night, around 8pm. My eye bags are getting bigger and my dark eye cirlces are getting darker -.- I need to hibernate real soon! Exams starts tomorrow and I have not started studying! I did jot down some notes but I actually fogot what I wrote. Short term memory ._.

You suck (: I just hate the sight of you!

我想要和你聊我的纷乱
你手上遥控器转个没完
该怪我自尊太泛滥
问你的太自我 让谈心 变困难
你以前很爱我的陪伴
但现在却更爱你的方向盘
还记得我们曾浪漫
两个人开车环岛
每天幸福用不完
我们多久没牵手
不小心就像朋友
一起躺着 也各自有梦
不争吵 不温柔 不分手 却不快乐
我们多久没牵手
两颗心都变得被动
放弃努力 在做什么
就怕会更难过 只好装作我比你冷漠
你给的解释总是太晚
我已经疼痛的无法释然
听多了谎言会让人永远不忘
所以别指责 我敏感
我放假你加班 寂寞的夜晚
很受气谈恋爱 苦涩的习惯
在别人眼中 我们被羡慕甜蜜美满
才讽刺让心最酸
我们多久没牵手
不小心就像朋友
一起躺着 也各自有梦
不争吵 不温柔 不分手 却不快乐
我们多久没牵手
两颗心都变得被动
放弃努力 在做什么
就怕会更难过 只好装作我比你冷漠
当爱情弄的像折磨
OH NO~像岁月还是我们犯的错
会不会拥抱着回忆念旧
被遗忘的感动又那般复活
wo~
我好想要重头
why~no~
我们多久没牵手
两颗心都变得被动
放弃努力 在做什么
就怕会更难过 只好装作我比你冷漠


超级白! ばか! Fuck off laa!!! Don't try to keep me in the dark. The more you try to hide, themore I'll know. Dumb ass!

OH FUCK! You seriously is too naive already. Kao! People say wad then you believe. Why don't doubt people's words? Too trusting is not good laa. Seriously, see the mess that you create. You paid so much money for nothing. I feel damn angry laa. Always waste so much money. Can you don't be so impatient next time? Anything wait for me can? Kan jiong spider man! KAO!!!!!!! I really feel like locking you at home man! You always kena cheated. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please don't let such things happen again can? Why won't you just listen? OMG laa! *smack forehead* Damn dulan man! @#$%^%$#@

):

Oh freak! I just scalded my hand and arm while ironing my uniform ): It's so effing pain laa! Ouch!

Anyway, IS today was totally crap laa! I got time-tied. Not tongue-tied. Lol. Damn the person who bang into me and made me dropped my bread. Idk who you are but you should at least apologise to me. There were so many people near the oven so you got away. Kao peh man! Heng today not final exam. If not, I'll gan you till you go long bia laa! Kao! Waste my time waiting for the bread to proof again. @$%#@#$%

*Sign* I'm feeling so distracted recently. My mind just keep wondering away. I shouldn't be feeling this way. Why is this happening to me? Perhaps I'm just feeling indignant. I hate the sight of you!

I seriously need a hug ):

Kao peh laa! MY TIME IS SUPER PRECIOUS! DON'T WASTE MY TIME! I got no time for such nonsense! Tsk, no standard. ABSOLUTELY NO STANDARD! Kao! I'm better off doing solo.

Argh! Had the worst presentation ever! I looked so damn dishevelled ._. I appreciate those people who listened to our presentation. Thanks! (:


Hurhur, today ended at 1.30pm. But I am not happy. Not even the least ): Things are not going the way I want. Anyway, I went lunch with Dioreen, then I went to see mei mei. She played with my watch and I left it there! OMG laa! It's my favourite watch ): I want it back so badly!


I need a hug ): Soon, I think I will lie unconcious. I'm both physically and mentally tired. Idk why either. It's just so happening recently; so happening that I'm so lost! I just couldn't break free from the struggle of confusion. God damn it!


Know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothing
You're the one I want and I'm a continue loving
Cause your considered wife and I'm considered husband
And I'm a always be there for you

我不管你用任何眼光看我 我都不会选择放弃
我要坚持到底 忽略那些冷言冷语
爱是如此珍贵 值得我们彼此相信
两颗心才越靠越近

And no one knows
Why I'm into you
Cause you'll never know
What it's like to walk in our shoes

没人会懂 是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That's why we'll break through
And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain't got to match with the shoes

我知道每一次的沟通 就会让我爱你更多
跟一次的拥抱 温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸 美好或相同

Keeping it always true
And no one knows
What I'm into you
Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes

没人会懂 是我们的梦 Yeah
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That's why we'll break through

And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain't no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never
walk away from me no matter what
And that's why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know

Gosh, we took 6 hours to cream a cake. This is taking way too long! OMG laa! How are we going to make it for our exam? 5 hours is not enough to make a cake, bread and cream puffs! *smack forehead* GG man!

No text, no calls. imy.

Yeah

You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way

[Chorus]

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way

[Chorus]

Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me...

You are my fire
The one desire
You are
You are, you are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
(Don't wanna hear you say it)
I want it that way
I want it that way

I got so tired of the things around me): It's always the same stupid feeling! Gosh! HEADACHE!!!

I wish that I can pretend that I don't see anything or hear anything. But I can't. The truth is just there. Can I refuse to accept it?

Oh fuck! I really feel like slapping you when I see you! Get out of my life man! You are making my blood boil! ):

Ferlyn is so tired; she needs her beauty sleep.
So, after her presentation, she's going to her dreamland (:

Goodbye.
Idk why, guys nowadays like old woman. He's like that. And you are too. Crap man!
I'm falling into a deep deep sleep, until my prince wakes me up.

Stop finding excuses. You are just a J-E-R-K!

WEEEE! I'm so pro laa! Yesterday I started doing my written report but it exceeded the word limit. I just edited my report and it falls within the word limit! Woolala! I completed it within such a short time frame (: I bet that I can do it within 4 hours if I focus more yesterday and not multitask while doing my report. Haha! Speech delivery and FHH presentation tomorrow, food presentation next monday and debate on next tuesday! OMG laa! *Hope it's over real soon!* But hor, since the written report already do finish still not so bad laa (: Left only the slides but I can do on saturday, I guess. Debate leh, just shoot laa. Lol.

But, exam is coming soon -.- Sian-ness! 我没时间~ 我没时间~

我的世界
若闭上双眸 握住了宇宙
会浮现怎样念头
当明天清醒后 要如何
才能够改变我生活
有时候惊醒心里空虚
无法呼吸失去了知觉
问自己为何
还在写这故事
还不认输 我一个人哭
像一场走不完的悲剧
所有人在我面前 都在演戏
昏沉手里紧握着一支笔
勉强继续写 来安慰我自己
再也不会跪着当奴隶
我发誓最后一口气也会站着拼命
不要活在别人的阴影
当我离开这个世界没有任何遗憾
人和人之间 不再有谎言去附和欺骗
不再有太多错误 说抱歉
停止为了人际关系感到疲倦
就回到悔恨发生的几秒之前
若闭上双眸 握住了宇宙
会浮现怎样念头
当明天清醒后 要如何
要如何 才能够改变我生活
没有太多视而不见
没有太多一成不变
没有那么多悲剧在生活里上演
没有太多事情让我讨厌 冷冰冰
停止再被金钱囚禁
你的心 我的心
我唱的声音 全世界都能听
给我孩子 更好的环境
没有那么多疾病
没有那么多噪音
没有那么多犯罪在谁家附近
给我理由相信
心里多了一丝宁静
更多的道德标准
在是非对错之间找回平衡
让我能够在这残酷的世界上生存
人与人 从此不再有战争仇恨
我们的飞弹不再对着自己的人
烧杀虏掠 只是历史课本其中一页
和平 不再遥远
若闭上双眸 握住了宇宙
会浮现怎样念头
当明天清醒后 要如何
才能够改变我生活
我不知道有没有神
为什么世界有这么多恨
为什么拿走这么多朋友亲人儿童的灵魂
听说是为了让他们更靠近神
他有这么自私吗
为什么要这么复杂
什么是天堂
什么是地狱
我不管
我都不想去
因为这里已经是我的世界
若闭上双眸 握住了宇宙
会浮现怎样念头
当明天清醒后 要如何
才能够改变我生活
闭上双眸 握住宇宙
怎样念头浮现心中
张开双眼 看清自我
懂得勇敢改变生活

I had said my piece and this is what I get? OMG laa! So be it!

我的风, 你在哪?

Recently, I find myself getting frustrated very easily. It's not PMS or anything -.- I also don't know why I'm like that. Quite contradicting though. I acted like those things doesn't bother me. But in fact, they just keep appearing in my mind. I just can't stop thinking. I feel I'm both physically and mentally tired. I really need a break from all these nonsense. At times, I wished that people leave me alone. Yet, I want a listening ear. I want a pair of shoulders to lean on. Some things are really getting out of control, and the worst thing is that I don't have the solutions. So, I just do whatever I feel like doing.

I abhor:

1. Waiting. I wait for a purpose, and not wait for others to finish their bitching to another person.
2. Senseless questions. Don't bother asking me stupid questions. I'll give you that glare.
3. Spammers. Don't spam me with your nonsense. I don't like it.
4. Cold shoulders. Don't ignore me for no good reason. It's ridiculous!
5. the heartless you! You are making me so upset! ): Let's reconcile, shall we?

My time is precious. Stop wasting my time away!

I'm frustrated! I'm jealous! I'm confused! I'm lost! I'm going crazy!

Kao peh! I woke up today with a good mood. Then I go school already become so pek chek! Chao chee bye laa! I feel so frustrated man! My FHH group and blah. Next was my phone. I don't know what's wrong laa! I can't seem to receive any messages! I need to switch it on and off to check if I got any messages -.- There isn't any new messages on my phone but when I off it and on it, messages are flooding in. I'm sorry if I didn't reply your texts. I don't even know that people text me. Call me, don't text me. Cause I won't receive any texts unless I keep switching my phone on and off. Fucking irritating man! Argh! I'm so busy this week and I think that I'm will soon die so frustration! Oh FUCK! Then was the internet connection. WTH man! I can't get any connection and I can't reach the customer service. Today is simply not my day! 　
烦啊烦啊烦到无法呼吸! 烦啊烦啊烦到歇斯底里! 烦啊! 我烦啊!

看你拿笔抄车牌! ばか! Fuck man! Damn pek chek today! Why do people always take advantage of the situation? Kao peh laa!

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