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Saturday, May 29, 2010
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6:49 PM
Today was the most unfruitful day of the week. I spent hours waiting, just to take my tests. OMG! My time is precious! It's not meant to be wasted in such a way! ): But, everyone was waiting as well. So I shall not complain!
While I was waiting, my mind drifted away. It wandered all the way back to the past, where I used to share happy memories with different guys. All memories buried deep inside my heart suddenly became a film. And I was watching it. At the age of 16, I believed that you were my true love. You were different from the precious few. You loved me for who I am. And I truely loved you then. You gave me promises but you broke all of them. You broke my heart. When you left, you left me shattered and torn. I got out of it eventhough I was really brokenhearted. You didn't know how painful it was for me, did you? I did all I could to salvage our relationship and you left me 4 days before my birthday?! There were a few occasions when we both saw each other. But you chose not to say hi to me. To date, we didn't keep in contact for years. You must be feeling guilty for abandoning me eh?
At the age of 17, you stepped into my life. You were my crush when I was in secondary 1. I didn't expect us to be together, cause we don't talk much. But, we did got together. I don't know if you really love me, but I did love you then. However, things changed as time passes. You wasn't as loving as initaially. You would be great, if you put me as your first priority instead of your DOTA. Out of a sudden, you just went MIA. A year past and you resurfaced. I feel that you are a nice guy. You were there for me when I was feeling low. Why won't you be as sweet when we were together?
At the age of 18, I met you. Honestly, I felt that you are a jerk. The worst guy that I had ever met! Do you go around toying with girl's feelings? In short, you suck.
Next, it was you. I really like you a lot. But, your feelings for me ain't real. So, I got myself out of the whole mess before you get the chance to break my heart. When I was clearing my inbox today, I got the urge to text you cause I saw the messages you sent me. But, I held back. I knew that you wouldn't give a damn about me now. You were lovely and great. I miss those times we spent together though it was only a short period.
There were a few passerby in my life. I appreciate their love for me but I just don't feel the same way for them. Thanks for loving me!
I'm turning 19 this year. I don't want to get into a relationship that wouldn't last. I'm sick of my heart shattering everytime when I met a new guy. I met a really nice guy this year. Too bad he isn't mine. Perhaps, he was never meant to be mine. I miss those times when we had endless conversations. I miss those times when he was beside me. I haven't seen him for ages. How have you been? No doubt, he must have gotton busier. He won't have forgotten about me if he was that free. Little do you know, out of so many guys, I miss you the most! ):
It's going to be end of May soon. Time really flies. How I wish that time would stop at the time when I was 16. I had the sweetest memories then. "07 red and green; forever, Bonnie and Clyde." But, I'd aleady moved on. You were just a part of my past.
Alright, end of story. Actually, there's no ending yet. I waiting for my prince to write the ending together with me. Is it going to be like the fairytales? Where I'm asleep all alone in my icy cold bed and then a prince charming came along and give me a true love's kiss. Next, it's happily ever after. I'm waiting for this day to come :D
Argh! Are you guys her dog? Why do you guys always do her bidding? Can't you see that she's making use of you all? OMG!! Wake up please! Tsk!
you're MINE!
