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Sunday, April 11, 2010
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5:09 PM
Argh! Life is miserable! OMG! I don't know why I said such depressing words. What happened to the happy me? Can someone tell me what is going wrong? I feel so dead! Who will pump oxygen to my heart? My heart feels so empty; so empty that I just feel like going into a deep deep sleep. I want to be like sleeping beauty, who only wakes up after her prince kissed her. But, can I really meet my prince? Argh, I should stop dreaming. It's not even realistic.
I'm feeling so lethargic. I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder. Why? I'm just a nobody. Is it because I'm getting matured and things just can't stop flashing in my mind? I feel that my brain is going to explode anytime. Honestly, is it just me or there are people feeling the same way as I feel now? Where is the optimistic me? Gosh, I want to be the happy girl I used to be ): Did I make the wrong decision? Nah, I don't think so. I don't regret my actions, unless it's really something that I really did it wrongly.
What's the reason that sometimes I'm feeling down? I don't know either. Or perhaps, I just refused to accept the truth. Cause, the truth really hurts. The truth shall just be kept secret. I don't want to know and never want to know. However strong I try to be, there will always be a weak side of me. I just need someone to be there with me. I need my superman ):
Some days I'll sit just staring out the window and watching this world passing me by. Sometimes I think there's nothing to live for; I almost break down and cry. Somtimes I think I'm crazy. Why am I here just wasting my time? Argh, why is it that we feel like strangers at times? I don't want things to turn out this way. Honestly, my insecurities could just eat me alive. I may be found lying dead on my bed tomorrow. Whatever it is, I got to keep myself alive, until love is found.
you're MINE!
